Category Archives: musings

It’s been a LONG time

…since my last post.  Juggling work, family, baby, friends, and miscellaenous other stuff (like trying to maintain a tiny fragment of a social life), really eats away at the time I planned to allocate to updating this blog.  I can’t believe the July’s ending soon – summer is halfway over already (and so is 2011!)

One of my biggest challenges in blogging is re-learning how to write in a open and engaging way, especially given that the bulk of any writing in the last several years has been very cut-and-dry stuff like emails and application review comments.  I hope that this blog will help me develop a stronger writing style which infuses more of my own personality within its contents!

Moving onto another topic, I’ve belatedly started planning A’s first birthday party (called the dohl), which is a pretty significant event in korean culture.  I like to call it “my second wedding,” as it entails just as much planning and stress (many moms say even more).  With the event less than 2 months away and nothing really done, I’ve got a ton of stuff to do.  More details on dohl planning in future posts!

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2 month update

At the beginning of the year, one of my resolutions was to be more consistent at writing blogs.  I’ve failed somewhat miserably at this.  Though I tried justifiying this because of the pregnancy and being a first-time mom, they aren’t the best excuses because I see lots of pregnant and/or FTMs that somehow find the time to update their blogs.  These women must either have clones of themselves or not sleep more than 2 hours a day. 

Every year around this time, I say the same thing – “I can’t believe the year’s almost over!”  What’s really scary is that time seems to go faster on a daily basis.  I clearly remember writing my first blog post  back in September 2009 while traveling for recruiting trips, and now it’s already been over a year since then.  Ever seen the episode of “Twilight Zone” where a man finds a stopwatch that stops time?  I need one of those.

November has flown by and Aaron’s grown tremendously.  He’s almost double his birthweight – currently at 10 lbs. 11 oz.  Granted, he was a tiny baby…but still!  I’m a little sad that he’s no longer the wee little newborn swimming in his baby clothes.  My eyes got a little watery as I put away some of the clothes that no longer fit him because he’s outgrown them. 

I’m returing to work in less than 2 weeks, and each day my heart aches a little more thinking about it.  The first few weeks of motherhood, I was itching to get back to my old life and return to work, craving that sense of normalcy and the “good old days” because I was so tired and overwhelmed.  I missed the silence of our house pre-baby, and the prospect of a solid 8 (or more) hours of sleep after a long day of work.  How things have changed…how I’ve changed!  I don’t mind getting up at 3AM to the sounds of Aaron’s cries for food.  Squeezing in a shower during naptime and wearing the same spit-up stained clothes for days on end isn’t so bad either.  Hanging out at home amusing Aaron with faces and babytalk isn’t boring – the smiles they bring forth are worth it. 

I’ve always feared that I was born without a maternal bone in my body, and the first month of motherhood almost made me feel like this was confirmed.  It took a while to bond with little Aaron, and now I can’t imagine life without him.  Gladly, I give up sleeping in, drinking alcohol, and my overall independence for him.  Being a mother is the hardest thing I’ve done, but the rewards are totally worth it!

Bye bye work…hello maternity leave!

Last Wednesday was my last day of work before maternity leave.  I’ve been looking forward to this for  months but now that it’s here, I’m finding myself being rather bored and restless.  Everyone’s been telling me to relax, rest up, and do absolutely nothing, especially since I’ll never be able to regain this time once the baby’s born, but try as I might, this is tougher to do than it sounds!  Maybe it’s because of my short attention span – I can barely sit through a movie or spend hours finishing up a craft project.  Or perhaps the pregnancy makes it difficult to be in one position for long periods of time.  Whatever the case…man, I’m really bored.  It doesn’t help that I’m stuck without a car since it’s currently at the dealer’s. 

I guess it’s time to go refold the baby’s clothes (for the 10th time).

9th month – just a few more weeks till baby arrives!

It’s hard to believe almost 9 months of pregnancy are over and that my life will be forever different with the addition of a new member to our family.  Though we’ve spent the past few months slowly preparing for the little one, I don’t think the reality of this event has hit us yet.  It’s fun to squeal over cute baby clothes, obsess over strollers and cribs, and decorate the baby room, but I’ve tended to gloss over (or not think about) the hard parts – labor, saying goodbye to uninterrupted sleep, endless loads of laundry, lack of alone time, etc.  However, moms have been doing this for thousands of years, so I’ll get the hang of it, right?

I’ve come to terms with gaining 35+ lbs. since January.  It seems like ages ago when I competed in a mini-Biggest Loser competition…which ultimately left me $600 poorer since I found out I was pregnant during the last week of the competition.  I guess one good thing about being broke is that I have no choice but to lose the weight to fit into my old clothes…no money for a new wardrobe!

Here’s a shadow pic from my 5th month…at the time I thought I looked huge, but compared to now, that’s nothing!

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Where did the summer go???

Wow, I can’t believe it’s already mid-August!  Why is it that summer flys by so quickly?  It’s been a weird one in LA this year…the weather has been unusually mild, with temperatures averaging in the high 70’s, even in the valley!  Normally this time of year, the valley’s scorching with temps over 100 on average.  Not to complain though…I was dreading a hot, sweaty summer during my last trimester of pregnancy.  God’s blessed all the pregnant mamas in LA with great weather this year.  Hopefully this won’t mean we’ll have a crazy heat wave in the fall, though!

Second trimester of pregnancy was great – I had tons of energy, slept pretty well, and had a healthy appetite (almost too healthy, since I gained about 25 lbs. during that time!)  Unfortunately, third trimester isn’t so wonderful.  The past few weeks have been pretty tough…lots of back pain, especially from the afternoon on, difficulty sleeping at night, heartburn, and peeing every hour has been super annoying.  Good thing there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, since the little guy’s due at  the end of September! 

I’ve done a fair amount of travel during my pregnancy.  Here’s the rundown:
-March: Pismo Beach for a destination wedding
-May: Bachelorette party in Santa Barbara, 1 year anniversay/babymoon to Cabo
-June: Chicago and San Diego for business trips
-July: Hawaii for a destination wedding

The last trip, while it was super awesome, was definitely tiring.  My aches and pains started after I got home from the airport and haven’t really gotten much better since.  Now’s the time to take it easy, which means I’ll be missing my nephew’s 1st birthday in Seattle at the end of the month.

Baby gear basics

We just found out that a baby boy is on the way and now we can start doing the fun stuff – shopping!

Actually, it’s a bit overwhelming.  I didn’t realize how much stuff a little infant needs, especially after reading blogs and baby books.  Plus, there are so many choices out there for car seats, strollers, cribs, clothes, bottles, diapers…my head’s spinning already. 

I came across this article today narrowing down baby items to the five essentials that a parent only needs.  According to the author, parents really only NEED the following:
-car seat
-crib
-stroller
-bouncy seat (more of a maybe)
-baby bottles

Of course, obvious items like diapers and baby clothes weren’t included.  Unfortunately, the first three items are probably the ones that’ll cost the most amount of money, especially if you go for top-of-the-line items.  And realistically speaking, who can’t resist buying teeny little baby clothes and cute baby room decor, no matter how impractical or expensive they may be?  I should’ve stopped spending money a year ago to save for our expensive little one.

A long hiatus

Hello world!  I broke my promise made in my last post to blog more consistently and often, and after a few months, I’m feeling a bit rusty.  So please forgive me if the next few posts seem to ramble on or not make much sense. 

Work has kept me super busy the past few months, but fortunately the majority of things that kept me away from blogging are over, and my personal life won’t have to take a backseat anymore (at least until next year).

I don’t want to blame my job for everything, though.  Something happened that ensured my life will never be the same going forward….

I’m pregnant!!

There’s a blurry picture of me, excitedly showing off the results.  I don’t know if anyone can tell, but I was still in a state of shock when this picture was taken.  I was so sure that I wasn’t pregnant that  my response upon seeing the test was, “see two lines – not pregnant!” 

I’m in the beginning of my second trimester now, ready to share the news with the entire world now that my family and friends know.  The gruesome details on my severe morning sickness will come soon. 

Now I can start blogging about baby stuff without sounding like a crazy person!